i’ve made SO many, so so so many… I wanna think i deserve happiness, I wanna think I’m too good to get hurt, and I wanna believe the popular belief amongst people in my life that i WILL find happiness and that it will be so easy for me. but i’ve hurt people too, a thing i’m not proud of, and getting hurt in return is just life’s way of making you a better person.. so I don’t care that people just say things to make me feel better, and I want to believe them. I’m just gonna stop believing because I don’t want to have hope, I just want to let life happen… and all the happiness you think you deserve won’t change the fact that you’re unhappy… and when you’re unhappy for so long, what will change that? there’s no person to fill the void, there’s not one soul i can link mine too. and i only wanna trust myself. Because I can’t prove to everyone that i’m a good person, and i’m not trying anymore.
no one is bringing me down anymore.
i farted in front of my brother and it made me giggle.. :)
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My friend was telling me all these stories of our childhood last night, and all the fond memories have like disappeared from my brain. I only have very faint distant memories, but I wouldn’t be where I am today without them. I’m glad I got to talk about them, but I wish I could go back and re-live them, just so i can actually say i remember like it was yesterday…
but i remember like it was years and years ago. and I don’t wanna feel old.
I’m so glad i stopped watching, I flipped to the season finale and have no idea why these talentless hacks are on TV. I’m sure you guys will get far.
when i can’t stop thinking about you<3
i care too much about other people and making everyone happy.
I wish that meant that I could make myself happy, not that I’m not, but for every win there is a loss. and that’s the part my body can’t handle.. the yearning that everything could just work out perfectly for everyone<3
but my judgement will always be affected by others, and I may never know if I’m doing the right thing for myself, but hearts aren’t made to make decisions, heads are, and hearts are just made to make those decisions harder…
so this is my head telling my heart to hope for the best, and be happy with what life throws at us
albertsafar-deactivated20111017 asked: welcome back, friend! how's everythannng?
Everything is great thanks for asking :) i just couldn’t stay away I’ve realized i want a place to jot my feelings haha